Getting over..

Finally i cut my hair..=)

1 week of school is over and i have got Bs as daily grades for all the modules. It actually makes me feel happy to see all Bs in black once i open the LEO..My classmates are kinda cool and i do like the environment even though most of them are splitted in their own group frens..Its just one week and there are many weeks to go..so everyone should be able to bond well soon.

My PP got approved and i was damn happy as i manage to do it in just the last 3 days forcing myself to really get the right thing...but it was indeed tooooooo long..4267 words to be exact...its more than double times the number of words set by the PP advisors..I think the PP advisor didn't even bothered to read it since its too long..even i myself just took a glance through it before i submitted..hehehe..

Life seems to be back in track with funny frens who just can't stop poking fun or do stupid laughable stuffs..I am managing to get over the disappointments i had during the holidays..There are always the constant reminders of it but i am adapting now..but still...i regret..i really do regret and wonder what i could have done in order to avoid such a miserable situation..

Working with Dinmak during the nite shifts on Saturday and Sunday were damn fabulous..i enjoyed every bit of it..we shared alot of things and we get to understand each other more now.. he did told me certain stuffs and advised me..I just only realized that dinmak is indeed a very good advisor..hahaha..

i cut my hair and i am damn happy since it was damn thick and itchy..now its just short nice..and i even get compliments for my new hairstyle..weeweee!..its very rare to get as i am always categorized for not combing my hair and just let it be messy..and now its nicely combed..=)

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and now this part of the post is for Shantni..

Dear Shantni..you are brave gal now..ur bitter + sweet experiences are now good lessons for you..don't ever repeat the same mistakes..Time will answer your calls and wishes..You got frens whu care abt you..Just take your own time and enjoy life for now..You are just 19 and you have a long road ahead of urself..i am not going to advise you on what you are supposed to do and not.. Only you yourself knows you better...i believe that you will come good again and be like the same old shantni who just know how to take life as it is..Any problems or stuffs that you wanna share..you can always count on me to lend a listening ear and a helping hand..

Shan Baby Shan..:)

New Sem! New class! New Life!

Finally school has started and i am so happy to go back to school..Finally back to frens and tis time round i am just gonna go by the flow and i am not gonna make promises to myself..I have totally discarded certain people and have already started to avoid them..i have my own reasons and it is sensible enough for me..I am pissed off with people who just asks for help and disappear after its done..or people who 'step' to attract attention..and i have already identified these people and you can soon see me drifiting away from u all..I no need anyone other than my frens whu still cares for till this years!..HVB!..

New semester leads me to a new class..W26J..yeap..it does actually carry half of my previous classmates and i am in the same class as Dinmak again..haha..smething beneficial for me..it is always nice to have dinmak around..Ridwan was a bastard in the first day of class when the faci ask all the students to introduce themselve by saying wats their name, where they stay and wat is the expection for the module..He stood up and said "My name is ridwan and i am staying with Anand in his house together with him and my expectation for the module is to see joshua everyday in class.."..the class started laughin and i was like 'eerrr..uhhh..embarrased!'..while dinmak was grinning..funny people..Other than tat.the class look indeed cool..need some a little bit more of time to bond..=)

I am again back with dinesh and raja all and its always nice to be with them..laughters and more laughters..indeed a cool group of people..about my own personal life..i have decided to stop interfering in sensitive issues like gals..relationships and etc..Ahil may know the reason coz i was complaining to him..Vicnes should also have a slight understanding of it too as he was a push factor..My only advise for u all..

"Its ur life people..you wanna get doomed, just get urself doomed..you wanna go in the right path, jolly well follow it.."..

Peace!

Basics please?

People..GET A DAMN LIFE!..

I just dunno why but i cant help it..seriousli speakin i am just simply irritated with people who are trying to act new..try to gain attention..try to make oneself look like hero or heroine who always faces immense difficulties even if they are the only soul in the world who does only good stuffs..FUCK YOU morons!..seriousli u all need some serious counselling..

Suddenli i have been seein people pop out from no where who really seem strange..Its like not the same person i knew before..please lah people..don't make urself seem a super human who just only does the good things..everyone has their own falls and ups..stop always lamenting your falls and make urself look very pitiful..especially the ones in relationships..

i can understand that putting your status as 'It's complicated' is kinda a new trend even though i dunno where it orginated from and why its cool...Wat is so trendy or cool about it?...and..and..please uh..don't try to act emo online when u are facing a failed relationship by blogging online such as 'taking sleeping pills', 'slitting the wrists', 'sitting near the ledge of the window'..my only reaction for you all is...JUST DO IT PROPERLY!..wats the point of taking alot of sleeping pills when you know tat you won't die?..wats the point of slitting your wrists when you knoe which area will have the less impact on the pain?..and wat is the point sitting near the ledge of your window when you know you don't dare jump?..

Think........

and you all got the cheek to blog it online..put it as your Facebook Status..or as msn personal messages?..bunch of attention seekers..trying to seek attention for your failed attempts and make yourself look like some superheroes? Seek attention for the right reasons people..i am not saying tat don't eva blog about your relationships...blog..but blog for the right purpose.. Condemning your partner in one post and praising the person in another doesn't help..being indirect in conveying your messages about your relationship does help..so please understand..

i know that this post may cause some controversies..but then..

i jus fucking hell DON'T care!

Drink..Drank...Drunk!

the calm one!

and i am not going near any alcohol stuffs for some time..

first of all i have to wish Muhes..Happy 18th Birthday Muhes!..hope you enjoyed the celebrations brother!..Have a long lived life with all your loved ones..God Bless You!

and now back to my point..most of the guys know tat i am drinking for the past two weeks non stop..every night after my work i resort to alcohol..let it be beer..liqour or wateva related to alcohol..i just grab it with both my hands..the close guy frens of mine knoes the problem i am facing and wat negatively motivates me to actualli drink..I wanna sleep..when i head to my bed..i spent the whole nite thinking of what made such a situation to happen..where i went wrong..wat kind of loser i am by tossing around the bed in an attempt to find and hoping vainly that i can sleep and wake up a new man in the morning..but.....it doesn happen..

probably the best beer in world

alcohol helps..i don wanna get drunk..i just wanna enjoy the feeling of being tipsy and when i head to the bed i need a peaceful sleep..and i went back home tipsy every single day after work..but from now on..i NEVER will..i have decided to call quits on my crave for alcohol..ahil is gonna see tis as a surprise..but tats the truth..i am never again gonna touch alcohol anymore..any night parties tat involves beer or liqour..i am just gonna get myself a cup of coke jus like Jaya and Muhes..

Why?

Muhes Birthday was a blast..water bombs thrown at him after an replica of a "World War Two" planning drawn out by Dinmak and Kashwin..wished him Happy Birthday together..all exactly done on the 12am of 8 Sep..it was a blast..then came the liqour part..and after i two hours of drinking i started to drift away into my own world and the last thing i remembered was dropping on my own vomit and vicnes' serious voice of "Pundek..u r not going to drink anymore!!"..

The P.I.C

In the mornin when i woke up i was on my own bed with vomit all over me wondering what i did the night and how the hell i came home..the Hangover sucked big time..wasnt able to go work..just cursed myself and felt bad tat i disappointed my mum..i did manage to find out wat i was up to during the night from my frens and felt really ashamed and at the same time stupi..and from tat incident i develop a fear for the smell of alcohol and alcohol itself..dinmak told me tat i would hate it only for maximum 2 months but i am sure i am gonna hate it for a longer time than tat..

Whateva it is..i am just gonna pick myself and work towards my aim..=)

and all i need is the support from my Broz!..

Understanding Test

and its time to blog..

Two Understanding Tests(UT) are over..First was Engineering Cost Decision and second one was Aerodynamics..and sadly i feel that i didn do my best for the both UTs..

Engineering Cost Decision was the only module that i fare worst this semester..alot of Cs and only manage Ds for the past two UTs of these module..And as usual i wasn't in the right mindset when i went into the class for my UT..i tried my best and spent hours on fully understanding the right knowledge..but then as usual..wat i realli studied didn come out..the one tat i assumed to have less weightage came and that was a setback tat i couldn't actually handle..this was further more compounded with BEN!..he was sittin beside me and before i could even muster a word to type it down..he was busy holding onto the calculator and punchin in values..and that itself was good enough to make me feel damn stressed out..his loud typing was good enough for me to give up hope on my UT..

Aerodynamics didn't do much good too..Its on paper and it was a difficult task to memorize most of the theory part as Aerodyanmic is full of theory..and i still manage to memorize all the difficult ones..and tis time round..the test was so freakin easy but i still couldn't do it..i concentrated on the difficult ones and ended up just havin some rough ideas on wat are the easy ones..haiz..and everyone had the same feelin as me..Easy but didn't know how to do..

Now there is still two more to go..Statistics and Operation Planning..and i have no idea wat i am suppose to do for statistics..but i am just hoping that i can pull it through..

The Hangover

So once again...i chao class!!..However tis time i don regret as Dinmak, Muhes and I had a hell of a time laughin out in the Cathay at Causeway Point..We went to see the movie The Hangover with Muhes's complimentery tickets..Since Muhes works at the Dhoby Ghaut Cathay and since he is a very dedicated staff he got himself complimentery tickets to enjoy movies in any Cathay..and after seein Muhes and Dinmak during the break,i was influence by my ownself to chao school and study for the upcoming UTs..

However as we know tat as Singaporean Indian Teenagers we are we can never decide on a certain thing immediately..soon our original plan had to be abandon for PLAN B-See movie..and its just my second English film that i watch in theatre and maybe my 4th or 5th English movie tat i have seen eva..but it was a hilarious movie with all three of us laughin to the max..and after the movie i told muhes tat we shuld also go Las Vegas and have a hell of a time one day and he just gave me the 'dream-on-anand..dream-on' look...a funny movie enjoyed with funny people by my side..however a bad discovery by me marred my day..My PSP screen CRACKED!...argh!..i was shocked and the repair cost is $90 after i proceeded to check out with a PSP shop..haiz..i guess wat i did on the weekends came back to haunt me..haiz!...

However i decided to borrow my brother's PSP for the time being..however its another faulty PSP with some modification problems which my brother just vainly tried to settle..Hope tis PSP situation will come to a good end..

and now its back to my bed..need a well deserved rest!...need some time to cool down after some energy sucking incidents..

Great Time

Sweets.......I took it from her blog!

What a hell of a time we had Sharen?

Yup..well 2dae i meet Sharen Caur after almost 1 month knowing each other through msgs..blogs..msn and thru calls..We had actually planned to meet last wed but then call it off coz of some reasons..So since it is a Wednesday and a 'No-School' day for me..we planned to meet today...

So as usual..i went 10minutes late according to my Triple T (Typical Tamilan Timin) rule..haha Venue? Sembawang MRT Station..We had alots of fun and i was bullied by tat Punjabi Gal sooooo much tat i ended up wif scratches..bruises..wounds and some bite marks..Thanx to her constant pinches..bites..smacks and scratches...and she got the cheek to poke me in my stomach where i was jumping up and down with the ticklish feeling!..and she can still say that it was my stubborness when i did something good...didn i sharen?

Soon had this Indian old timer whu came up to the place and said "Bang...sorry ah..i need this place as i have some frens coming here to have some important meeting..i don wanna u all get influence ah..tats y.."...i was like wtf!..i was just talkin to sharen caur abt ppl communicatin wif me in Malay and this guy popped out from nowhere with his "Bang!"..and the funniest part was the "..i don wanna u all get influence ah..tats y.."..as if we people are angels in human form!..

The rest of the meeting went smoothly with the occasionaly bullying i get from tat Sharen!.. the burnout game...mats showing off their bikes and occasional stares from the passer bys..and not to forget...the sweet stuffs we talked...we lepaked till 6pm before walking to the MRT and ended our meeting with a warm hug..It was time spent wonderfully and now i am waiting for the next meeting earnestly sharen..



should i tell?