Drink..Drank...Drunk!

the calm one!

and i am not going near any alcohol stuffs for some time..

first of all i have to wish Muhes..Happy 18th Birthday Muhes!..hope you enjoyed the celebrations brother!..Have a long lived life with all your loved ones..God Bless You!

and now back to my point..most of the guys know tat i am drinking for the past two weeks non stop..every night after my work i resort to alcohol..let it be beer..liqour or wateva related to alcohol..i just grab it with both my hands..the close guy frens of mine knoes the problem i am facing and wat negatively motivates me to actualli drink..I wanna sleep..when i head to my bed..i spent the whole nite thinking of what made such a situation to happen..where i went wrong..wat kind of loser i am by tossing around the bed in an attempt to find and hoping vainly that i can sleep and wake up a new man in the morning..but.....it doesn happen..

probably the best beer in world

alcohol helps..i don wanna get drunk..i just wanna enjoy the feeling of being tipsy and when i head to the bed i need a peaceful sleep..and i went back home tipsy every single day after work..but from now on..i NEVER will..i have decided to call quits on my crave for alcohol..ahil is gonna see tis as a surprise..but tats the truth..i am never again gonna touch alcohol anymore..any night parties tat involves beer or liqour..i am just gonna get myself a cup of coke jus like Jaya and Muhes..

Why?

Muhes Birthday was a blast..water bombs thrown at him after an replica of a "World War Two" planning drawn out by Dinmak and Kashwin..wished him Happy Birthday together..all exactly done on the 12am of 8 Sep..it was a blast..then came the liqour part..and after i two hours of drinking i started to drift away into my own world and the last thing i remembered was dropping on my own vomit and vicnes' serious voice of "Pundek..u r not going to drink anymore!!"..

The P.I.C

In the mornin when i woke up i was on my own bed with vomit all over me wondering what i did the night and how the hell i came home..the Hangover sucked big time..wasnt able to go work..just cursed myself and felt bad tat i disappointed my mum..i did manage to find out wat i was up to during the night from my frens and felt really ashamed and at the same time stupi..and from tat incident i develop a fear for the smell of alcohol and alcohol itself..dinmak told me tat i would hate it only for maximum 2 months but i am sure i am gonna hate it for a longer time than tat..

Whateva it is..i am just gonna pick myself and work towards my aim..=)

and all i need is the support from my Broz!..

Understanding Test

and its time to blog..

Two Understanding Tests(UT) are over..First was Engineering Cost Decision and second one was Aerodynamics..and sadly i feel that i didn do my best for the both UTs..

Engineering Cost Decision was the only module that i fare worst this semester..alot of Cs and only manage Ds for the past two UTs of these module..And as usual i wasn't in the right mindset when i went into the class for my UT..i tried my best and spent hours on fully understanding the right knowledge..but then as usual..wat i realli studied didn come out..the one tat i assumed to have less weightage came and that was a setback tat i couldn't actually handle..this was further more compounded with BEN!..he was sittin beside me and before i could even muster a word to type it down..he was busy holding onto the calculator and punchin in values..and that itself was good enough to make me feel damn stressed out..his loud typing was good enough for me to give up hope on my UT..

Aerodynamics didn't do much good too..Its on paper and it was a difficult task to memorize most of the theory part as Aerodyanmic is full of theory..and i still manage to memorize all the difficult ones..and tis time round..the test was so freakin easy but i still couldn't do it..i concentrated on the difficult ones and ended up just havin some rough ideas on wat are the easy ones..haiz..and everyone had the same feelin as me..Easy but didn't know how to do..

Now there is still two more to go..Statistics and Operation Planning..and i have no idea wat i am suppose to do for statistics..but i am just hoping that i can pull it through..

The Hangover

So once again...i chao class!!..However tis time i don regret as Dinmak, Muhes and I had a hell of a time laughin out in the Cathay at Causeway Point..We went to see the movie The Hangover with Muhes's complimentery tickets..Since Muhes works at the Dhoby Ghaut Cathay and since he is a very dedicated staff he got himself complimentery tickets to enjoy movies in any Cathay..and after seein Muhes and Dinmak during the break,i was influence by my ownself to chao school and study for the upcoming UTs..

However as we know tat as Singaporean Indian Teenagers we are we can never decide on a certain thing immediately..soon our original plan had to be abandon for PLAN B-See movie..and its just my second English film that i watch in theatre and maybe my 4th or 5th English movie tat i have seen eva..but it was a hilarious movie with all three of us laughin to the max..and after the movie i told muhes tat we shuld also go Las Vegas and have a hell of a time one day and he just gave me the 'dream-on-anand..dream-on' look...a funny movie enjoyed with funny people by my side..however a bad discovery by me marred my day..My PSP screen CRACKED!...argh!..i was shocked and the repair cost is $90 after i proceeded to check out with a PSP shop..haiz..i guess wat i did on the weekends came back to haunt me..haiz!...

However i decided to borrow my brother's PSP for the time being..however its another faulty PSP with some modification problems which my brother just vainly tried to settle..Hope tis PSP situation will come to a good end..

and now its back to my bed..need a well deserved rest!...need some time to cool down after some energy sucking incidents..

Great Time

Sweets.......I took it from her blog!

What a hell of a time we had Sharen?

Yup..well 2dae i meet Sharen Caur after almost 1 month knowing each other through msgs..blogs..msn and thru calls..We had actually planned to meet last wed but then call it off coz of some reasons..So since it is a Wednesday and a 'No-School' day for me..we planned to meet today...

So as usual..i went 10minutes late according to my Triple T (Typical Tamilan Timin) rule..haha Venue? Sembawang MRT Station..We had alots of fun and i was bullied by tat Punjabi Gal sooooo much tat i ended up wif scratches..bruises..wounds and some bite marks..Thanx to her constant pinches..bites..smacks and scratches...and she got the cheek to poke me in my stomach where i was jumping up and down with the ticklish feeling!..and she can still say that it was my stubborness when i did something good...didn i sharen?

Soon had this Indian old timer whu came up to the place and said "Bang...sorry ah..i need this place as i have some frens coming here to have some important meeting..i don wanna u all get influence ah..tats y.."...i was like wtf!..i was just talkin to sharen caur abt ppl communicatin wif me in Malay and this guy popped out from nowhere with his "Bang!"..and the funniest part was the "..i don wanna u all get influence ah..tats y.."..as if we people are angels in human form!..

The rest of the meeting went smoothly with the occasionaly bullying i get from tat Sharen!.. the burnout game...mats showing off their bikes and occasional stares from the passer bys..and not to forget...the sweet stuffs we talked...we lepaked till 6pm before walking to the MRT and ended our meeting with a warm hug..It was time spent wonderfully and now i am waiting for the next meeting earnestly sharen..



should i tell?

Being yourself...

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Yeap...Be yourself..don change for others or don't care when someone gives u a negative comment to pull ur morale down...A valuable lesson i learnt in this 17 Years 7mths 3 days of my life..I have seen a lot of people whu suffer from Bullying..even i am a victim of it once..

Bullying is the act of causing harm intentionally. Through mental or physical means, bullying never fails to strike fear in the victim..It at times bring the esteem of a person to the bottom end!..Bullies think its fun to bully people of their weaknesses...It evokes laughter for them when they do such stuff..For them it is a just a short-term way to have laughter...However the havoc they are creating in a person goes unnoticed...It can result the victim to feel hurt,scared,sick, lonely,embarrased and even to the extent of developing negative shades of life..As a former victim of bullying..i did go through this difficult stages...

There are different kind of bullies...People whu abuse verbally..physically..emotionally and etc.. Every kind has its' own damage...the end product is always the same..Why am i suddenly talking about bullying?...I got my reasons..

I just noticed a high number of cases of bullying..An there are extreme cases of victims resorting to death as the only choice to end the mental, physical and emotional toture..Statistic shows that teenagers nowdaes are getting worser in their behaviour and bullying people who are timid, smaller in size , soft-spoken and the list just continues..One recent case is about this gal whu attempted suicide after reaching her breaking point coz of her peers bullying her about her illness..Bullying someone over their illness?...Tats freakin ridiculous!..

It led her to commit suicide and she dropped on the drain resulting in her back and her head to hit a nearby pillar with great impact..She didn't die..but due to a spinal cord injury she has to face the inevitable of being paralyzed..In my opinion if i were to face tat situation,i rather die..Seeing yourself in the bed everydae and yearning to walk everyday will just mentally hurt u more and results in a severely hit low self esteem with a high chance of hating oneself...

Be yourself guys...be proud of yourselves..don't be intimidated..stand up for Yourself!

Updating time!

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Ok..it is time to update..it has been a very long time since i updated and many people have requested me to do it..i am not surprised..tats wat people can expect when i am freakinly lazy... when it comes to blogging i need motivation..wifout it...i don even visit my blog..and now i got a long list of events to update...


I am afraid that i may start to go back to my old ways of leaving school half way or 'smoke thru' the lesson without getting any knowledge...Surely my grades aren't consistent enough and i have to suck up here and there in my RJ to at least get a C..Apart from studies there are still other things that are in my mind.. Positive stuffs and Negative stuffs...Life with the most reliable frens has been great and there are always the laughters and jokes that never fades away..However there is been high number of cases where people enter my life and then just walk out of a sudden...Isit my inability to hold on to them?...i am not sure...i have no answers for it..my onli hope is that time will answer the questions that is being unanswered..There are also the funny moments with my Havoc Brotherz where there isn't an end to the jokes...not to forget..there are moments where i laugh at myself of being so childish when disturbin some 'cat' online thru MSN..hahaha!...also got the times where i enjoy seeing a guy whuse face will suddenly change like as if he kena menses wheneva he see me and Ahil...hahahahaha!..funny people...

Coming to personal life...There are hicupps here and there but i am still looking forward to the positive onli...there are fuck typed moments where i prefer being alone..thinking and wondering..and talkin abt personal life..it brings me to Sharen Caur whu has been a wonderful companian for these past few weeks..

The irresistible fites but uncontrollable luv 4 each other makes me so treasured and i can assure you Sharen Caur that i do treasure our close frenship kays...Days nowdaes arent normal if there aren't any msgs...Not to forget the random calls and the naughty stuff we talk just puts the smile on my face and hope it did the same thing to u...and i am once again assuring u tat i wont be ditching u even if u everytime complain tat i wuld...So go hug ur bolster after u read tis post Cookie Monster=)....and now i am demandin a sweet poem frm u Sharen Caur!....hahahaha!...

Work has been goin as per normal and i am awaiting my job appraisal which i would receive next week..and I have oready prepared for what seems to be a very poor one..Surely i am one of the most problematic Gantorian with alot of reports..However i knoe i won't be sacked as i knoe i ain't tat bad..just hope everythin is fine..

and now i feel so tempted to follow Justin with his drinkin escapades!...hmmph!..but i knoe i wont..=)

Reflections

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So it is time to update my blog...I know i haven been blogging much nowdaes mainly due to the fact that i dont get the motivation to do it...so here i go reflecting as usual..

Its another Friday nite and here i am locked myself in a dark room staring at the laptop thinking what am i suppose to blog about...About the events that took place for the past few days or by just reflecting on certain issues in my mind as usual..So let me start off with how days are going nowdaes...

Yes..Life is fun when u got great company of frens whu just keeps cracking jokes and consistently makes me burst into streaks of laughters..Like today..Muhes..Jaya..Dinmak and Pavithra had a great time laughin with the constant comedies of Muhes..Surprisingly Jaya was more quiet today than as usual..Oh ya..We did choa class today..The inability to concentrate in class plus the desire to take some break was overwhelming and all jus decided to have a day off..

Stupid RP which is implementing useless curfews and rules just makes we students more irritated..Why dont they just close down the school for a certain period?...The principal's explanations aren't that impressive...I just saw alot of students leaving today just coz they didn bring their thermometer and the school thinks it is ok to refrain students from entering the school just coz of the 'Thermometer Rule'..Dumb Fuck!

I wonder why inconsistency rule the life of mine..One moment i was enjoying with my frens and the next moment i am sitting there quietly deep in my thoughts wondering what am i suppose to do in order to achieve what i am desiring..and its just sad to know that i have not impressed enough even though personally i feel that i am doing whatever i can..

Of coz there are the happy moments..Laughin uncontrollably..letting my imagination run wild.. Disturbing the people around and obviously fooling around with those who i love...Some may forget me when they don need a joker to be with..But no matter wat...i am earnestly looking at the postive side...Spare me a Prayer please...

and before i go..my Birthday wishes to one of my dearest Friend:

Happy 18th Birthday Kutti!
God Bless you!!