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Lookin at the current things that are happenin around me..i got to admit that i am realli facin alot of troubles...Setbacks would be a better word to describe...I am facing alot of it indeed...

I am still reelin frm the sudden death of my fav aunty..It always hurts to knoe that we may nvr be able to see the person again after their death..It is hard to face the reality..and i have to admit that its gonna be hard for me not to think of her..

You always be loved Aunty...

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Having a new mentality isn't goin to make any difference when a person refuse to ignore the bitter facts of past...and in my case..i jus have to admit that i am playing a losing battle..With the aid of my best companians..i am walkin on top of a thin line..the people that i am expecting to remember me are leavin me alone..out in the dark..its jus too late....

Setbacks!!...a word that i hate so much currently..I have jus lost interest in everythin around me..I hate to be an emo actualli..esp after knowin that emoin isn't cool stuff...

BUT my situation is such that i jus feel like throwin out all my emotions right now...All i know is..

I am not facin the brightest time of all..and i have to admit that my morale took severe beatin that i am still reelin back from alot of morale degrading incidents..

...........May all setbacks have a reason...........

School Starts..

My journey for the next step in education has officially started..After a 3 month holidays that i spend by working had come to an end..and now the rest of the next 2 moths plus will be at school..

I jus found out my class for the Year 2 in the mornin of Monday..I did know that Dinmak and i were in the same class but i wasn motivated to find out wat was really my class..and in the mornin after findin out i found that there is a majority of male gender that conquers the class.. Mayb about 17 or 18?...

So based on the 2 days of lesson that i attended,i gotta admit that i like my new class's atmoshpere..However as it is just 2 days, there is an uneasy feeling in everyone's face as we still need some time to bond..

So wat abt my work?
Currently i don't have any intention to quit as i realli love the ppl there and they have also requested me not to quit...So i have jus decided i should work on Wednesdays, Saturdays and Sundays..Maybe i would consider about Saturday as i am tempted to play with Kutti and some of the frens, soccer at Yishun..The street soccer court located at the Ah Tong Field is the venue..

Ok then..will be back again..

Birthday Wishes

So here comes my 1st post for the month of April...and i would like to start with a birthday wish..So who is the Birthday Star??

Vicky and Jaya

I know that tis post is already a few days late but i didn log into my account for a very long time..Sorry abt tat Brother...

So here is my B'dae wishes:

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY JAYA...
God bless you my Brother..Hoping for many great success as years to come with your loved ones..

SO this guy whu has been a very gd fren of mine for the past 5yrs has finally turn 18....So some description abt tis very handsome fren of mine...

The most funniest guy i hav ever known..

A good listener too..

The only fella that i shared the same classes for the whole of Secondary School..

A very good natured fella who had helped me out in numerous situations..

An intelligent guy who realli can come out great solutions out of nowhere...

A soccer star who realli is jus so gifted that i have been jealous of him alot of time..

A great fren tat a person could dream of and i am lucky that he is my fren..

So once again..HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAYA


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So here comes the next part of my post..

Muhes for the 1st time took Kavadi for Panguni and it was after a long time that i am seein my Seconday school frens and we did had a good time had Panguni...Sorry tat i culdn attach pictures as Muhes still haven uploaded..Maybe prehaps inthe near future i would upload it in another post..

So abt the situation there..it was realli fun but its jus a pity tat i had to leave earlier as i had night shift that night thanx largely to my freakin in-charge who couldn excuse me for that day even though i had already informed that i am unable to come..

Coming back to the Panguni...Muhes realli manage to endure the pressure and it was realli impressive..In total it was realli a great event and hopefulli next time round i can realli enjoy the atmosphere for a longer time..

Ok now back to my usual routine...Sleep...

Bloggin..

Its been another day where i am starin the laptop infront of me with numerous confusing things runnin across my mind...but i think bloggin isn't a gd idea to express my ideas actualli..

So let me think...hmmm...i seriousli hav no reasons or anythin interestin to blog abt..its kinda of a borin life i am leadin now..Home and Sentosa...the onli two places wher my mind is revolving around..

Work Related Updates....
My best buddy at work Kumar quit..and 'Panda' oso quit..Kok Lun quitin in 7 days..Sharifah quitin in 2 weeks time..Fatin got sacked..Reena and Aminah roster decreased to jus 2 days work per week..all the close frens and buddies i had there r goin off or either get their roster decreased..Its kinda sad tat a good team is breakin apart but then tats the reality...

20 April is fast approachin and i would be in sch in no time..Talkin abt sch...i am still unsure whether i am lookin forward for it or not..At times i do feel tat i need school to answer some disturbin questions abt certain issues i am currently facin but then at times..i do feel tat school will jus multiply my questions rather than decrease it...

ok..i think tats jus nice..i hav no more mood to type nor the ability to churn out more crappy issues out of my freakin mind...

If u guys feel tat i am realli being a emo..Sorry for that..but my situation is in such...

Gantorians

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Its official...i hav lost my interest in my current job...thanx to the stupid management...Kumar has oready informed the in-charges tat he is quitin soon...His reason...The Executive Officer...Vasugi!!!...I cant blame him..3 complaints against him in jus 4 days...and all because he did his job...Its very irritatin to know that Vasugi jus sides the guests even without investigating wat had happened..and a fuming Kumar told me how he hated the supervision of Vasugi and planned to tell her off before he quit the job..

and i myself who had long term plans to work at sentosa have lost my mood after an 1hr long discussion with Vasugi who at 1 point of time said.."I don't need this kind of staffs at gantry if they aren't goin to understand anythin"...right into my face..and i jus felt like throwin the walkie which was on the table at her face..she wanted to know what happened in a recent case that Kumar and i was involved..The fuckin guest write in a very big report framin Kumar....and as i was involved in the case she koled me and discussed and that bitch realli got into my nerves with a nonsensical arguments and accusations which i tried to explain but in vain...she jus doesn understand and can accuse me of being defensive...

She all the way was sidin the guest and can even tell me.."I am not goin to buy ur stories"...then for wat fuck she wanted me to answer her questions when she isn't goin to listen to my point of view...at the end of the discussion she said she didn wanted my point of view and onli will pay attention to guest point of view...and i was realli fumin so mad that i realli gave her the sacarstic smile when she said we gotta take it as experience...and tat was what i was clearin tellin that sucker...and her moral of the incident..."Never assist ur peers..."...WTF!...and when she felt that it sounded stupid...she added on after a pause..".......when the situation is bad"...

Doesn't that sound a little cranky?...
Never help when the situation is bad?...she got the cheek to add on tat..."Help when the situation seems positive..."...Thats realli like so stupid...Of coz when there isn't any problem..we no need to help our frens...Once again, that realli shows the gantry staffs tat she isn't qualified for her position of an Executive Officer...

and what am i goin to do about it?
Goin to write a complaint to the manager of Sentosa and get the Gantorians signatures who hate Vasugi's management..and the best part..80% of the gantorians hate Vasugi...includin her own cousin brothers who realli got pissed off wif Vasugi's antics..They are the one who prompted me write a letter and tats what i am goin to do...

& it will be Soon.......................

Flaring Tempers

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It is jus so easy to irritate me nowdaes tat my gantry staffs hav noticed how easily i get angry and burst!..and there are kinda worried abt it as it can lead to me being fired..to make sure tat i am still ok..they are checkin on me everytime whether i am ok..Especialli Aminah whu every few minutes will ask me whether i m doin fine and make sure tat i am doin well..Thank you guys but i do think tat sooner or later i will be fired from sentosa for my outbursts and big arguments wif guests..

I jus get angry so easily nowdaes tat i get into tangles wif unreasonable guests whu behave like some stupid people from a new world..No matter how much we try to explain the procedures we gotta follow at gantry, they wants it their way..and even when we try to help them by closin our eyes at times, they still sulk..and on the other hand some persistin personal problems tat i am facing prevents me from controlin my emotions..and as a result..it leads to big arguments wif guests..i accept tat its my fault at times but i dont start..

and tis past week..i had to send in alot of reports to my in-charge which isn a great thing..so much of complaints would hav been filed against me by guests as there was alot of difficult situation..and in 1 situation my in-charge hav to rush down to stop the situation from escalating to a fight as a contractor and i had a very big argument until i used a vulgar word on him..and the in-charge had to be wif me for the next 20mins to make sure i would not burst again..

and yesterdae..it almost became a fight when the guest came out from the car and placed his hands in a way as if he is offerin me to fight..i would hav seriousli given it a thought if not for Kumar who cooled me down even though he and i was unhappi wif tat guest too..it was him who had probs wif the guest and when i went to make sure everythin is goin fine..the guest scolded me wifout any reason..he was unhappi for payin $2 for the vehicle..Jus a bloody $2..and he can even tell me "What the fuck you want??..don't raise your voice...i am payin ok!!"..

and i jus felt like takin out my wallet and throw a $2 note at his face and say "I paid for you fucker!"...and the main thing..he didn pay me..it is Sentosa who is payin for me...Can drive a Lancer but jus so difficult for him to give a $2..he later drived off when he see he was outnumbered by us as every single staff was starin at him..and my another in-charged had to come and cool me down...he oso dunno wat 2 do as he saw me fumin...

I hav to and check tomorrow how many complaints hav been lodged against me by guests..the onli consolation i have is tat i didn start the problems and my colleagues were there to witness every single thing tat had happened..

as for now..all i can tell..i m jus goin my way..no-one to disturb and interfere..............

Night Shift....

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I was kinda excited to hear tat yesterdae nite i was workin..coz its the 1st time i m goin to work at nite..jus 2 ppl..no in-charges..no Vasugi ther..no one to supervise us..we ourselve control the gantry..the onli irritatin part was tat..we gotta handle cash as the Group Arrival Centre(GAC) wuld be close at nite..its kinda stress coz we mus be realli careful when we handle cash..mus hav the exact amount of cash as stated in the system...and i knoe i am quite weak in maths and i got the tendency to go 'kabra' when i handle cash and calculations..but the prospects of gettin an extra $10 for the night shift and the chance to take long breaks were makin me feel a little more enthusiastic..

So it was me and Saiful who were doing night shift..on Fridays and Saturdays there will be 2 ppl workin..so i was kinda quite relieved tat i got a partner to chat wif..As i expected it was realli relaxin and most of the ppl who come in at nite were not makin big fusses..All was goin fine until Saiful went for break...

Even though we can onli take 1hr break each..Saiful and i planned to take 1.5hrs of break each..So Saiful went for break 1st..he went the pantry which was located a few hundred metres from the gantry while i was in the booth..happily playin PSP..then onli got tis weird incident tat realli made me puzzled..While playin PSP..i look up at my computer screen and got a heart-attack..There was one "COM-Taxi Entry" in the screen and i was shocked coz there wasn any taxi tat went in..and before i clear tat..another "COM-Taxi Entry" tat appeared in the screen!!!!

and by then i was like kinda spooked coz no vehicle went in...i looked arnd and still cant spot any vehicle..to make the matter worst I HEARD A FAINT FEMALE VOICE!!!..and by tat time..i was jus hopin tat if i am fated to see smethin supernatural..i wish i can see smethin less frightenin..but lucki for me..Saiful jus returned back in time and i was extremeli relieved..

and the rest of the nite and early mornin went peacefulli except for some rare appearances of "COM-Taxi Entry" tat appeared another 3 or 4 times...but by tat time i was jus so preapred to jus clear them tat i wasn givin alot of attention to it..oso got tis very interestin grp of indian ppl who came in a normal car..inside the car were 8 ppl squeezed..all Indian ppl..mayb at the age grp of 21-23yrs old..except for the driver..all the ppl inside were drunked..if i not wrong i saw 4 gals and 4 boys..and as usual..it was another sight of typical indians...the driver talked to me in Malay and i jus said..its ok..jus talk to me in Tamil..he then sheepishly grinned and said tat he thought i was a Malay..i jus smiled at him and charged him $18..and then i heard tis voice frm the back of the car..."If i see u outside..i will chop u.."...the driver scolded tat fella in the usual vulgar language and said to me "Sorry bro..tis fuckers whu r my frens drink and kay-siaoin.."...i jus smiled and said.."No prob..."

SOooooo...i can say tat i did enjoyed workin at nite as it was fun..interestin and of coz spooky.. When i told Saiful abt my experiences of the weird "COM-Taxi Entry"...he smiled and gav the "haha...u oso kena oready" reaction...

ok folks..gotta sleep...got work 2moro mornin..gotta wake up at 3:45am for the mornin shift..

...Selemat Malam...