and i am not going near any alcohol stuffs for some time..
first of all i have to wish Muhes..Happy 18th Birthday Muhes!..hope you enjoyed the celebrations brother!..Have a long lived life with all your loved ones..God Bless You!
and now back to my point..most of the guys know tat i am drinking for the past two weeks non stop..every night after my work i resort to alcohol..let it be beer..liqour or wateva related to alcohol..i just grab it with both my hands..the close guy frens of mine knoes the problem i am facing and wat negatively motivates me to actualli drink..I wanna sleep..when i head to my bed..i spent the whole nite thinking of what made such a situation to happen..where i went wrong..wat kind of loser i am by tossing around the bed in an attempt to find and hoping vainly that i can sleep and wake up a new man in the morning..but.....it doesn happen..
alcohol helps..i don wanna get drunk..i just wanna enjoy the feeling of being tipsy and when i head to the bed i need a peaceful sleep..and i went back home tipsy every single day after work..but from now on..i NEVER will..i have decided to call quits on my crave for alcohol..ahil is gonna see tis as a surprise..but tats the truth..i am never again gonna touch alcohol anymore..any night parties tat involves beer or liqour..i am just gonna get myself a cup of coke jus like Jaya and Muhes..
Why?
Muhes Birthday was a blast..water bombs thrown at him after an replica of a "World War Two" planning drawn out by Dinmak and Kashwin..wished him Happy Birthday together..all exactly done on the 12am of 8 Sep..it was a blast..then came the liqour part..and after i two hours of drinking i started to drift away into my own world and the last thing i remembered was dropping on my own vomit and vicnes' serious voice of "Pundek..u r not going to drink anymore!!"..
In the mornin when i woke up i was on my own bed with vomit all over me wondering what i did the night and how the hell i came home..the Hangover sucked big time..wasnt able to go work..just cursed myself and felt bad tat i disappointed my mum..i did manage to find out wat i was up to during the night from my frens and felt really ashamed and at the same time stupi..and from tat incident i develop a fear for the smell of alcohol and alcohol itself..dinmak told me tat i would hate it only for maximum 2 months but i am sure i am gonna hate it for a longer time than tat..
Whateva it is..i am just gonna pick myself and work towards my aim..=)
and all i need is the support from my Broz!..